Sunday, October 30, 2011

Soups on!

Cooking it up with Johnny and a bit o soup.


Taco Soup

Taco Soup

1lb ground turkey
1 package taco seasoning
4 -5 tsp. chicken stock(or cans liquid)
2 beef boullions
1 can black beans
1 can kidney beans
1 can sliced black olives
1 can diced jalepenos
1 can stewed tomatoes (or diced)
1/2 cup salsa
Cheddar cheese and sour cream

Brown turkey, drain grease. Add taco seasoning and 1 c. water. Stir. Transfer to large pot. Add appx. 6 cups water chicken boullion/stock, and beef boullion. Add beans, olives, jalepenos, tomatoes and bring to boil. Add salsa and lower heat to a simmer. Serve with a dollop of sour cream and cheddar cheese.
It's that time of year again!!! It is soup yet?

Not Ready To Make Nice


Saturday, October 22, 2011

What Now!

Can you believe this! I'm having more and more difficulty concentrating, can't think for second, have continual brain fog, even got lost driving around my  home town last night and felt disoriented.  I was afraid I would never find my way to where I was going. I couldn't call anyone because I wouldn't have been able to explain where I was. I am sitting here in my living room, it's Saturday. I'm still having a difficult time focusing. I can't seem to complete a thought. I even DID NOT recognize my OWN home when I got home last night. I was only sure it was my home because the garage door opener opened the garage door. But, then I panicked thinking it had opened the wrong person(s) door. I didn't recognize my neighbors house and I was afraid to pull in the driveway that I'd be pulling into someone elses garage!! I finally noticed and recognized a coat rack I have hanging in my garage and then I was fairly certain it was my house. But, still not positive.

I use to spend many, many hours at work. I am now barely able to make it to the end of the work day. Even though my body is there, mentally I'm wiped. Physical I'm scarcely able to stay awake. I can barely figure out how to open my grade book much less get any work done. When people are talking to me I'm having a hard time making sense of what they are saying. When I 'm reading a story to my students, I am having a difficult time making sense of some of the text.

My students and I get so tired by the mid afternoon we can hardly stay awake. My students complain of headaches. I get headaches. My students complain of stomach aches. I've been waking up in the middle of the night with incredible stomach aches, diarreah, vomiting, cold sweats, feeling like I may pass out from the stomach pains.  My eyes are blood red by the end of the work day. They burn. My nose burns. My ears ring. I have restless leg syndrome and I am so tired I can't do a thing. It is overwhelming for me to think of just doing a load of laundry or picking up mail from the table. What would I do with it?

Then at work the other day, people begin telling me how my room smells of mold. It has this horrible odor. Several people in a row one afternoon entered my room slowly saying the same thing. I do notice a large black stain on the ceiling above my desk.

Today, I researched some symptoms of mold toxicity. It turns out all of the symptoms I labled are signs of dangerous nuerological reactions to mold toxicity. The mold actually kills brain cells. I can't financially afford to take time off of work. What do I do? I'm afraid to go to work.  Not just go in my room, but to go in the building period!

Here's a link to the symptoms:


Some of the symptoms are:

  • Mental and neurological symptoms

  • Respiratory symptoms

  • Circulatory symptoms

  • Vision and eye problems

  • Skin problems

  • Immune system problems

  • Reproductive system problems

  • Tiredness and discomfort

  • Other illnesses and health problems
  • Wednesday, October 19, 2011

    Boy this answers many a question.

    BINGO!!!! The psychopath in my life disdains being alone more than anything on this planet.

    "Psychopaths can’t tolerate loneliness. Just as all human beings can’t survive physically without food and water, psychopaths can’t survive emotionally without victims."

    Monday, October 17, 2011

    Wow a YEAR?

    I can't believe it's been a year since I've posted!! Wow!!! Well a lot has happened. I've added a link to another blog I'm managing so if you are interested you can check that one out as well. It's a blog about people with borderline personality disorders, sociopaths and psychopaths. We use those terms sort of glibly when talking about someone who is selfish, or self centered, or even just emotionally immature. We use it to describe people who lie and so on. However, these are very real disorders and very serious ones with specific criteria to actually be clinically diagnosed. If you are in a relationship with one, or suspect you are - this would be a great resource go to to learn more about it. It'll save you years of heartache and keep your life from being torn to bits if you truly are involved with someone who has a bpd.