Right Place Wrong Time

"I been in the right place but it must have been the wrong time I'd have said the right thing but I must have used the wrong line I been in the right trip but I must have used the wrong car My head was in a bad place and I'm wondering what it's good for I been the right place but it must have been the wrong time My head was in a bad place but I'm having such a good time"

This song is playing on my Comcast music station right now and it reminded me of a comment my coworker made today. She asked me what was wrong and thought I was unhappy. I asked her why she had that impression and she said because of my last blog entry. So, I thought I better clear up the confusion. I am not unhappy. I am doing very well! That previous blog entry was made on a day when I was doing a lot of soul searching to figure out why I keep repeating a particular pattern in my life that I keep thinking I've learned the appropriate lesson and won't repeat it. Then low and behold in waltzes a familiar stranger that I don't recognize. Only to discover soon enough I do know this stranger, all too well. I couldn't wrap my head around why said stranger keeps knockin' on my door and why I continue to open it and let him in. I think I have a handle on it now.

Lest there be any question I am very happy with the direction of my life. I love my new home, I'm happy with all the changes I've made for myself. My life continues to move forward and I continue to grow in areas I'm focused on. I have incredibly wonderful friends and family members who are always there for me when I need them. It just so happens when things are spectacular though, I don't sit down to "blog." It seems blogging typically happens when I'm settled quiet in my home contemplating, deeply thinking, and being introspective about something specific in my life that needs my attention. So, that's where that entry came from. Life's challenging for everyone some of the time. I just happen to blog about mine. But, no I am not unhappy. Just transitioning from "right place, wrong time", to right place, right time! It's coming! I can feel it coming my way! It's the right time, now I just need to find the right place to be.

Taking a break.

Trying to get back to the days when I felt attractive. I felt attractive last summer when this photo was taken. So, I'm posting it here to remind me. Even though I was with someone at the time who didn't make me feel good inside, I felt great about the outside. This year I'm working harder at feeling great about the inside AND the outside. Today don't feel great about either. BUT, I am happy with the progress I HAVE and am making. Just NOT there yet. There remains one NAGGING issue that keeps haunting me. I so want to put it to bed!!!!!

I've been doing all the things I mentioned in the last post. I started the guitar club and did it faithfully for a month or more. Cancelled today just because so many different things came up. I'm thinking about changing it to Thursday evening when my guitar class is over in just 2 more weeks. I've been enjoying the class so much, I think I'll take another when its over, or I may start private lessons then. I'll have to see what happens.

A little sad today about my impending birthday. Turning 45. Well over middle aged and yet the things that I long to be successful at I'm not yet. I'm working really hard at most of them, not hard enough at others and some I'm working as hard as I can and seem to be slipping and not making any leeway whatsoever!!!

I'm glad I'm taking care of my body in terms of walking everyday, yoga weekly, (though I REALLY want to pick that up to 3x weekly), improving my guitar playing, bringing more life and energy into my home, improving the look of my home, improving my attitude, communication both personally and professionally, being more selfless while taking good care of myself at the same time. Taking a break from FB because it was starting to consume too much of my time and thoughts.

I plan to use that extra time to organize my home, write chapter two of my book, practice my guitar and do some type of aerobic, weight training or yoga at home. Boy, if I can do all that during my normal FB time. FB WAS TOO BIIIIGGGG in my life.

PS: If you still recieve these posts and no longer wish to, please let me know. I don't remember who is on my "post" list. I may cancel that list all together. I'll have to figure out how to do that.

Oh the Places You'll Go!

Well, I may have the candida in check. Now I just need to keep it that way. New goal; set a deadline for the book and get back into shape! I refuse to weigh myself today, don't want to know. All I know is my clothes are getting pretty snug. Set a new goal to do a marathon this year. Start belly dancing lessons Thursday for fun and for the health of my body. Second week of guitar club at my home, for spiritual, emotional and social health.

Today starts the first day of focus on putting healthy things into my body. Only those things that sustain me truthfully will pass my lips. Meaning, foods with nutrients my body needs to be good to me, and things my soul needs to keep it healthy and strong and things my mind needs for it to be healthy. Oh the places my mind, body and spirit will take me when I take good care of them. Let the new day begin!

Candida be gone!

Well, I've written one chapter of my book and am mulling over the topic of the next chapter. Since I've started this sugar free, gluten free, low carb regime I am thinking about blogging about that journey. It's been 2 weeks and I lost 3 lbs and then gained 3 lbs, then lost 2 lbs. So, not sure what's going on with my weight. But, in terms of the candida, it's angry my friend! Very angry. I can feel it multiplying and going to battle. It's in the fight for it's life and it's not going to win! I am coming at it with all guns loaded, strategically, offensively and defensively. It will not conquer me, I will dominate it and demolish it! Candida be gone!

It's so confusing! Do I eat something with Splenda and 0 carbs, because after all I am counting carbs since yeast feeds on it. But, then do I believe that even though it's sugar free with zero carbs does that mean it's not going to convert to glucose once I eat/drink it? If my goal is to stay at 7 or lower carbs is that per meal, or per item, or per serving? For example if I am to stay at 7 carbs or lower per meal and I have 1/2 an Atkins bar that has 14 carbs does that mean I stayed at my 7 carb count? Or if I drink a V8 at 3 carbs and then eat celery with cashew butter that has 5 carbs have I exceeded by carb count of 7 carbs? Last of all, the live cultures in yogurt are supposed to help get the balance of good/bad yeast/bacteria back in my system so I should eat it. But, even plain yogurt far exceeds 7 carbs! It's like 19!! Does that mean I can have 1/4 serving to stay in my 7 carb count range, or does that mean I can't have any of it because it also has 18 sugar grams, even though no sugar is added. I mean really. How does one ingest yogurt to get the live cultures, yet not have dairy because it has too many natural sugars and too much mold or whatever. Geesh, I'm confused!

Moving on!

Okay...I'm moving in a few days. I'll be packing tonight! Merry Christmas to all. I'll be renewing my blog entries hopefully after the move. That's my goal. Inspired by Julie Julia, the movie. I need to get myself in gear and start working on my book I keep talking about. I have plenty of endless hrs at night these days so no more excuses. Well after the move, no more excuses. Merry Christmas to all!!!!

Rafting!

It's been a LONG time since I've updated my blog. FB sort of took over. But, I'll try to stay on top of it. I've been having a great summer, though I haven't taken an official vacation yet. Just several day trips. I'm hoping to plan something in August. Probably camping around Crater Lake, or a trip to the Redwoods. Guess I'll be working that out this week. I would love to hear how your summers are going.

Just a collection of spring break so far. More to come.....

Texas Hold 'Em!

We got a real warm Texas welcome!

Hospitality with a smile.

But, I caught on ree'al faaasst!

As did Emily.

She looks like a ree'al native now.

Hannah, never one to be too far behind either.


I'm catchin' on to this poker thang...

Never let 'em touch your cards.

Ya. I think I've got the hang of it y'all.

Soon, we all made up.

Good to be with my little sister Mary and little brother Seth!

Oh......

We kissed and made up! Do they come any sweeter?


Next stop....Hangin' Tree Saloon.

Don't worry Lori and Paul, as you can see I'm taking very good care of Hannah and Emily.

Disclaimer...of course no REAL drinking or guns were used in these photos...come on y'all!

Happy Birthday Mom!

The birthday girl! Please don't hate me because I have man hands. But, boy is the cappucino delicious.

Yum!

In the pink! I'm so lucky to have such a beautiful mother!

The New Year Brings Old Friends in and Takes Some Friends Out.

The year of 09 is the year that I say goodbye to old friends, and hello to some old friends made new again.

And saying hello to old friends who've become new friends again.

Me and my friend since my freshman year of high school, Brandy.

My sister Sherri with Brandy.


The three amigas enjoying catching up with one another.

We met at my favorite restaurant in Lake Oswego, Standfords.

"So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love. Follow after love..."

To follow love it requires the ability to recognize love. Sometimes seduction, control and manipulation can be mistaken for love. In order to love it also requires seeing others clearly. So trust wisely, not blindly. Remember to truly love those in your life it requires maintaining a centered harmonious relationship. This requires valuing integrity, being truthful and taking care of yourself.

To all my family and friends. I love you.